Things have been difficult lately. On one hand, I'm trying to socialize more and participate in more group chats and such, so that's a good development. I've also been drawing a decent amount, albeit a lot of it is sloppy joke doodles, but it's something regardless.
On the other hand, I've been having migraines on an almost daily basis since December, which has made life very difficult on top of existing stress. Also, for reasons I'm unsure of, my depression has suddenly amplified. I find myself unable to move, sometimes for hours, due to lack of energy. I nap more than I used to. I'm not sure what's going on. I'm going to talk with my psychiatrist about it.
What concerns me is that I'm running out of options medication-wise. I've tried so many, and they either haven't worked, stopped working, or I had to stop taking them due to my epilepsy. I'm always haunted by something my previous (and very troubled, questionable) psychiatrist said to me: "Well, maybe you'll just have to live with it." I've been told multiple times by multiple people not to take those words to heart, as she had her own issues and was speaking unprofessionally, but I worry that she was right. Will I run out of options? Will I be like this forever? I've already been stuck like this for over 10 years now. Is there really no chance for me to ever feel better than just bare minimum functionality?
Just a little vent. I feel slightly better typing it all out. I hope things improve soon.